Friday, September 1, 2017

new month and new beginnings

Hey everyone! It's officially September 2017, and it's crazy how fast the year is going by. It feels like only yesterday we were all relived that 2016 was over, but now we are only four months away from 2018. I just wanted to do a short post to talk about new beginnings for this new month.

Last month, on August 8, my grandmother passed away. She was an amazing woman, and I am forever glad I got to see her three weeks before she passed away. She was living in Orient, Long Island, which is one of my favorite places in the whole entire world. In July, my friends and I stayed out there for a weekend, and it was one of my favorite times I've ever had out there. Regardless of that, losing her really hit me hard. In my head, I never could picture her dying because she wasn't sick, and she was so full of life. When I saw her back in July, she was tanning by the pool and using SPF 6. Can you imagine an 84 year old using SPF 6? Back in 2015, she traveled to France with her friend and even before that she was always seeking out new adventures.

My mother, Grandmother, and Me at the American Girl Doll Store in 2006.

In losing my grandmother, I lost the woman who I could talk about books with and tell her all about the exciting things that happened in my life. I lost my last living grandmother (my other grandparents passed away before I was born and when I was seven), and my heart is still hurting a bit. My grandmother, until the very end, put her heart into everything and everybody. Days before she passed away, she was hanging out with her book group and going to art classes. She learned how to use an iPad a few years ago. She was planning on buying wireless speakers. She learned how to use newer computers. She even made fun of people she's known for way over 50 years by calling them old.

My Grandmother (in the hat), Great Aunt Mary, and Me in 2004.
 I've also gained a new perspective on life in all of this. Everything in your life is temporary, and no matter how hard you try nothing lasts forever. We lose so many things in our life from people dying to just broken relationships; but we can't dwell on it for too long. We don't know what happens after we die, so why don't we live life to the absolute fullest. When I am in my eighties I want to be able to look back and say, "look at all the things I've accomplished, all the people I've helped, and all the people I've loved along the way." My grandmother, wherever she is now, is looking back at her life and I am hope she's happy about how much good she's brought to this world.

So now it's September, and it's a whole different month. The trees are going to change colors soon. I am going to start school. Life isn't going to wait for me to stop mourning, but instead it's going to propel me forward so I can make a life worth living for myself. I am taking this chance of a new school year and month to become more productive.

For those of you who are grieving, I'll give you my advice for what's been helping me get through this hard time. Your life has been touched by the person who you are grieving for. For example, I didn't even realize the effect my grandmother had on me until she was gone. They are gone, but it's your mission now to make sure they live on forever. My thoughts about my grandmother will forever be on cyberspace (the internet), and maybe in the future her memory will guide me to bigger and better things. No matter how hard it is, you are a strong person who can get through anything.

Also, for those people who read my blog and interact with me on social mean so much to me and it keeps me motivated to be real on my blog. Thank you so much for supporting me.

Blog to you guys soon...

                                                        Christina Madeleine

My grandmother was an artist so I'll end this with a quote from a famous artist...

“It is good to love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is well done.” 
― Vincent van Gogh



  1. I loved this post! I've lost my grandma a couple of years ago and it's hard sometimes. Sending lots of positive vibes your way! :)

    1. I am sorry for your loss, it's always hard losing someone. Thank you so much :)

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